Direction - NO.SO.EA.WE

The direction I'm headed - it's called "Nosoeawe". Get it? How do you pronounce it? Any dang way you want. It's going in a million different directions all at the same time. I know you feel that way too. At the ripe old age of 47 and some odd days I have found calmness in breath and anxiety in thought. I am just always all of the above that way. The point of today's post? Just that life is wildly exciting to me and also a great mystery as well and I have no idea how it will all turn out in the end. And maybe it's ok that I don't have that path figured out yet or the map drawn out. (As an aside, I also know if my daughter sees any of these posts she will appreciate me for who I am but judge me for just never really learning how to write in the way I was maybe capable of (or that our high school taught us ;). I have that true deep-down feeling of happiness with myself and not caring about what anyone thinks about me but also craving acceptance from others and wanting massive change. And yes, I do have the basic understanding of - who can even follow this mess...? The truth is I can't either so there is something to be said for a map, a direction, a path, a focus, your North Star. I'm working on it and calming the other parts of me that constantly question the direction I'm heading...